. : transient : .

David Guetta feat. Kelly Rowland - When Love Takes Over (Official)

2009-08-30T21:56:00.001+08:00

"Knock You Down" - Keri Hilson (COVER)

2009-07-15T15:27:00.001+08:00

Evian Roller Babies international version

2009-07-10T10:53:00.003+08:00

Evian Roller Babies Making Of

2009-07-10T10:53:00.001+08:00

and so it is...

2009-07-09T11:08:00.002+08:00

everything in life is so ironic.

people who don't have the necessary education is perceived/stereotyped as incapable or not diligent, unintelligent. those used to be grandparents' sort of thinking. just because they couldnt get a proper education back in those days, therefore, their future generations need to be assured they'll receive the proper education they require, to be of use to the society and contribute accordingly.
whereas those who study too much (and when i say too much i mean MBA and above) seem to be having all the power and glory and money etc etc, they are at the same time, inflexible and boring. straight minded people, typical of academics. where is something called balance? is it seriously unattainable?

and so my colleague recommends i shouldnt study anymore because studying more also makes one dull-minded and annoying to others around.
ya, probably so - in any case, studying kills brain cells? haa!

well, you also those who don't understand the importance of having a full education. oh well. simple minded perhaps?
even now, in today's society, it is mandatory for those applying to be steward/stewardess to have at least an A level or Poly Diploma. or has it changed to a minimum degree? i wonder only because most girls now flying with the national carrier are degree holders... but it's a smart choice no doubt - get to travel the world whilst earning money, buy branded stuff from anywhere & everywhere. get to understand different cultures, become more affluent, network etc etc... the perks goes on and on.
the point is, just a few years ago, to be a steward/stewardess, you only need a minimum O level. But look what it has become now. hopefully they'll consider work experience as a deciding factor...

times are getting harder. money seems harder to earn.
so make the most out of your money.
don't work for money, but make your money work for you.
yes. i want to achieve that someday!

out with the negative, and in with the positive! ;)

There You'll Be

2009-07-08T17:51:00.003+08:00

There You'll Be - Faith Hill

When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I'll look and see your face
You are there for me

In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always

Heartless Cover - The Fray

2009-07-07T15:09:00.001+08:00

Circus

2009-07-02T10:14:00.002+08:00

excerpts from Britney Spear's Circus -

There’s only two types of people in the world
The ones that entertain, and the ones that observe
Well baby I’m a put-on-a-show kinda girl
Don’t like the backseat, gotta be first
I’m like the ringleader
I call the shots
I’m like a firecracker
I make it hot
When I put on a show....

I feel the adrenaline moving through my veins
Spotlight on me and I’m ready to break
I’m like a performer, the dancefloor is my stage
Better be ready, hope that ya feel the same
All eyes on me in the center of the ring
Just like a circus
When I crack that whip, everybody gon' trip
Just like a circus
Don’t stand there watching me, follow me
Show me what you can do
Everybody let go, we can make a dancefloor
Just like a circus

There’s only two types of guys out there,
Ones that can hang with me, and ones that are scared
So baby I hope that you came prepared
I run a tight shift so, beware
I’m like the ringleader
I call the shots I’m like a firecracker
I make it hot then I put on a show

shitty shithole

2009-06-26T09:42:00.002+08:00

so far this seems to be a pretty sucky week and a pretty sucky friday.
at this point i'm feeling terribly moody and highly volatile.
dont need any bullshit.
everything seems to suck right now.
if only i can scream at the top of my lungs.
dont anyone dare to irritate me.

i'm looking forward to my holidays - a break away from the sucky life in spore.
just thinking about it, being able to afford my own holidays is such a feel-good factor - being financially independent.
no wonder they say: spending enables the world economy to remain in motion.

Yahoo - "Dolphin"

2009-06-25T11:09:00.001+08:00

do all finance industry people suck?

2009-06-17T14:32:00.002+08:00

so what if you're like the second man in the company?
so what if you have a fancy job title?
so what if you are educated in managing finance?
so what, so what, so what?

can't stand rude people who made stupid senseless remarks & accusations.
indeed they "ought to be shot!"

what right have you got to come around pointing your ugly fingers at us and accuse us?
you should jolly well look ur stupid ugly face in ur big mirror and realise that you aren't that great either.
such a public nuisance. an annoyance to the world.
less of you, less trouble, less issues.

don't go throwing your heavy weight around because frankly, nobody gives a damn.
you should seriously watch what comes out of your mouth: your condescending remarks and body language & not forgetting that damn bloody annoying voice!
argh!

if you're not a team player than jolly well get lost.
look who's the one trying to sow discord. seriously man.

GET A LIFE! elsewhere but here!

uncommon ground

2009-06-02T13:57:00.002+08:00

if you're stupid enough to do it, then you should be stupid enough to see it coming.
what's the damn point of even bothering.

damn it. ass.

blue monday

2009-06-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

had this sudden urge to blog so here i am.

it's another one of my ranting posts...
not in one of my best moods today...
blueblueblue.
i usually dont feel this way. not sure why today was such.

somebody seems awfully good at delegating tasks.
as if i don't have enough things to do.
send an email and no thank you whatsoever.
whoever taught her abt manners. Gee.
that's why i always wonder, if pple from that industry really have zero personality.
what a pity. God is fair. *shrugs
shall not stoop to her level.

i realised today over lunch, i need something uplifting. i need to feel energised and recharged. ready to take on the next challenge in a way... maybe a spa can do that for me?

i also concluded i need to talk to my boss tmr. it's either i'm not managing my time well or i really have too much work. but anyhow, my committment to work has lapsed, no doubt. i hardly put in my usual 10-12 working hours like i used to anymore... sigh... someone, save meeeeeeeeeeee.....

everyone wants next week to quickly come and quickly go. little did we all know, we're almost into tuesday already. just 8 days more to the event. i really hope everything will turn out just fine. everyone's hard work and efforts will pay off.

im looking forward to my holiday... a getaway to help me clear the system, maybe just for a while... leave the worries behind and just enjoy what nature brings.

here i am... thinking about so many random things, there my work is waiting for me to begin.

i shall not procrastinate any further!

Wonder Girls - Nobody But You

2009-05-29T15:58:00.001+08:00

Robin Sparkles "Let's Go to the Mall" (full version)

2009-05-28T18:52:00.001+08:00

fiat 500 barbie

2009-05-28T10:04:00.001+08:00

the details are spectacular... u go Fiat!

flubug

2009-05-12T11:51:00.002+08:00

tis the season to be unwell fah-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la...

sigh...
it's at times like these that i crave for the most forbidden stuffs:

1. no nut chocolate brownies (the fudgy sort)
2. famos amos no nut choco chip cookies
3. chicken nuggets
4. kim chee fried rice
5. kim chee ramen
6. hot plate korean chicken
7. korean ginseng chicken soup
8. waffle pancake with blueberry jam
9. popeyes fried chicken & mash potato
10. pancakes with maple syrup
11. curry favour - jap beef curry rice
12. blujazz - fish n chips
13. coffee club - muddy mud pie
14. bangers & mash
15. calbee - hot & spicy chips
16. cheesy hot dog with lotssssssssaaaa cheese
17. prego - pasta & tiramisu
18. gd ol' spicy ramen
19. phad thai
20. old chang kee's potato curry puff
21. Don Pie - chicken pie

never mind, the above shall serve as a reminder when i get well.
i shall endeavour!

The Shins "Australia"

2009-05-12T10:56:00.001+08:00

my happy song =)

Taylor Swift - Love Story - Official Music Video w/lyrics

2009-05-04T21:45:00.001+08:00

handphone stealers

2009-04-29T14:52:00.001+08:00

fine. ok. fault us for being careless to leave our handphone around or to accidently drop it out of our pockets/bags without knowing.

whatever.

but the point is, don't you even know it's evil to steal handphones?
can't afford then don't own one.
why do you need to be so bloody desperate to take other people's things?

handphone stealers should all just rot in hell.
BURN!

How I Met Your Mother -- CSI: Style

2009-04-29T14:42:00.001+08:00

broke as broke can be

2009-04-28T16:28:00.002+08:00

i need to work on severe cost-cutting measures.
times are bad.
and my purse strings are in need of alot of pulling & tugging.
if my social life is seemingly non-existent, pls understand why - i really need to save money.
shall attempt to be cheapo - it's the way to go from now.
no more spending!
save save save!

Prayer of St. Francis

2009-04-27T12:09:00.001+08:00

Lord make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred let me sow love.
Where there is injury, pardon.
Where there is doubt, faith.
Where there is despair, hope.
Where there is darkness, light.
And where there is sadness, joy.

O divine master grant that I may
not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
To be loved as to love
For it is in giving that we receive-
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned.
And it's in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Amen

bills

2009-04-23T20:29:00.002+08:00

just when i thought that getting slapped with a $500 over credit card bill was bad,
try $785 now.
omg.

i'm dead.

i desperately need to stop spending,
and stop volunteering to pay first.

talk abt mood swings

2009-04-21T22:29:00.002+08:00

great.
now for no rhyme or reason dad's pissed at me.
i really don't know what the world is coming to.
why is everyone so freakin' hard to please.

already 24 and still being controlled.
where's the sense in that?
seriously?

at times like this, i wish i had my own place of solitude and refuge.
solitude doesn't seem so bad now.
at least i'll have peace by myself.
without having to watch my back all the time in case someone decides to get pissed off at me.
just get off my back. seriously.

talk about randomness.

fed up is what best describes my current situation now.

trying to see the sense in everything

2009-04-21T12:19:00.001+08:00

whats the bloody point of salvaging things now?
especially after all that has been said and done.
airing dirty linen for the world to see and talk about.
is it just seeking attention or what is it?
i really don't get it.

i remember telling you before, in a relationship, it takes 2 hands to clap.
n just last nite you tell me about it being a one way street.
who ever treated this as a one way street?
who?

i get that you need a longer time to cool off and so i let you.
how am i to know how long you need?
even after the so-called cooling off, you still could be so antagonistic towards me.
is that all i'm worth?
you jus being pissed off at me?

when was the last time i picked on ur shortcomings?
when was the last time i told you things i don't like about u, the way you handle things, the way you are or the way you drive?
when did i have expectations of you that i told to in ur face?
when did i have expectations and not say it?
when did i not give you credit?
when did i not tell you that i appreciate you taking the trouble to send me home after all the Clubbing?
when did i not tell you i appreciate the things you do?
when when when?

and now, i get told off one issue at a time.
exploded in my face.
just based on 1 issue. which is a small matter to begin with.
all we needed was to resolve it. to come to a common understanding.
but you chose to stay angry. you chose to be disappointed.
you could have talked to Grace, Shiqin, ask them for ways to help the situation.
but you chose not to.
fine, maybe you think they are MY sounding boards, therefore you feel it's not right for you to talk to them.
as much as Grace is my cousin, my best friend. she's your friend too.
i have no doubt that she will be objective thru it all. if only you just tried.

if it was all so important to you, why did you have to leave it all till now.
after saying all those hurtful stuff.
being so antagonistic and sacarstic.

for the record, you're not the only person hurt.
you're not the only person feeling shitty.
you're not the only victim here.

everytime we had issues, when did i post stuff about you on MSN or FB?
when?
by your last post last night and deleting/removing all our photos n such.
isn't it all clear enough?
i texted to ask if you still wanted the relationship.
guess what, you didn't reply.
how do you think you made me felt?

happy or sad, good times or bad, everything you announce to the whole world.
now even by you not eating, your whole family knows whats going on.
real smart move.
as if it's not bad enough that your whole FB & MSN contacts are probably thinking i'm such a bitch.
now your family too.
thanks alot. really.

i hated to think that our r'ship has an expiration date of 6 months like all your previous ones, because i held to my heart, the statement you made about me being different.
maybe you were just saying it.

if you know me well enough, you'd know how i handle things.
you'd know i'd be ok if you just talk nicely.
why must there be attitude problems for the sake of it?
we're all adults here.
why is there a need to make such a negative point?

admittedly, yes i have a lot of committments, yes i have a lot of friends whom i am not willing to let go off. it's not the first day you know me.
isn't r'ships about mutual acceptance?
what good is a r'ship if both parties are just going to keep pin-pointing faults and short-comings?
would you rather a girlfriend who has an exceptionally good social life, who includes you occassionally?
or would you rather a girlfriend who has the usual bunch of friends in her life and spends time with her family?

i know you don't like it that i don't put your name up here.
and yes, my closer friends would know who i'm talking about.
but still i choose not to put names up here.
because i'm very sure, years from now, i'll know who i'm talking about.

ya, it's good while it lasted.

Mayonnaise Jar & Two Beers

2009-04-19T22:03:00.000+08:00

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 Beers. A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.

When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full..
They agreed it was..

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full.
The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two Beers from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand.

The students laughed.. 'Now,' said the professor as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things---your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.
The sand is everything else---the small stuff.
'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Spend time with your children.
Spend time with your parents.
Visit with grandparents.

Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your spouse out to dinner.
Play another 18.
There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter.

Set your priorities.
The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the Beer represented.

The professor smiled and said, 'I'm glad you asked.' The Beer just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of Beers with a friend.

need for inspiration

2009-04-19T21:59:00.001+08:00

'Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.'A sharp tongue can cut your own throat.

If you want your dreams to come true, you mustn't oversleep.

Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important.

The best vitamin for making friends..... B1.

The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts.
The heaviest thing you can carry is a grudge..

One thing you can give and still keep...is your word.

You lie the loudest when you lie to yourself.If you lack the courage to start, you have already finished.One thing you can't recycle is wasted time.

Ideas won't work unless 'you' do.

Your mind is like a parachute...it functions only when open.

The 10 commandments are not a multiple choice.

The pursuit of happiness is the chase of a lifetime! It is never too late to become what you might have been.

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right.
Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason.
If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands.
If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back.
Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away.
Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong.

does it really matter?

2009-04-14T09:17:00.002+08:00

first of all, CONGRATULATIONS to Steph & Michelle on their baptism last Sunday!
i'm really proud of the both of you for going thru the RCIA. it is a trying journey of faith indeed, and i'm glad you both made it thru...
Thank God.

so all the office chatter yesterday about their baptism made me think, and it also stirred my other cradle catholic colleague to ask me random questions throughout the afternoon.
i think his intention was to test my knowledge of the catholic faith.
to be honest, i know nuts about it.
i know nuts about dates of obligation and important church information.
i.e. when was the vatican II established? what was the significance of the vatican II?
when is ascension? when is ash wednesday?

ya ok, big deal i don't know the answers to the above.
big deal that i'm a bad Catholic.
so what?
does that change my faith in God?

religion is just superficial practices.
practices to show people what we're all about.
what's the point?
you do it with unhappy hearts, where's the sense in that?

at the end of the day, to me, it's all about the heart.
it's all about the psychology behind the things we do/say.

everything else is symbolic.

so really, does it really matter?

this day

2009-03-30T10:42:00.002+08:00

today has finally arrived.

mummy, i'm proud of your courage to finally decide to do this.
you must believe that it is for the greater good.
i know you must be in so much pain and fear.
but yet, you are trying and have been trying to contain it all within yourself. as you always do.

i'm sorry i can't be there with you mum. but you must believe we're there beside you, wishing you strength and hope.
i'm praying for your safety and the success of the operation.

be strong mummy.
i'll see you soon.

You Found Me - The Fray

2009-03-29T12:49:00.001+08:00

out of it

2009-03-25T15:36:00.002+08:00

fed-up would best describe how i feel today.

bad sucky start to my morning.

so she fell down the stairs, now she's limping worst than ever before.
in a span of 2 days again she decided to be fickle-minded.
what is so difficult about it, i just don't get it.

now its his turn to be unwell. stressed from all the unnecessary drama she has been giving him.
im glad he is not as stubborn
i did tell him today, that i'm very very proud of him to remain cool and patient thru it all.
but unfortunately, those are just words. the damage is done.
now his health is paying for it - unknowingly.

everyone is aging. and there's no way to stop it.
i hate to see them in this poor state of their being.
so fragile.

just the other night, i was out with them buying groceries for church, when i saw him carry all those heavy stuffs, he tripped n almost knocked himself. but thankfully, he didnt.
thats when she passed a comment saying that he's drunk.
n so i told her off very quickly... he's not drunk. theres no way he cud be bcos he didnt even have a drop of alcohol. he's just OLD.

indeed, OLD is the word.
AGING too perhaps.
it's time to face it.

as cool & calm as i'm trying to be, as objective as i try to remain,
somethings are just not within my control all the time.
mood & emotions are terribly volatile of late.

no matter what, i'm thankful for my girlfriends.
i know i can talk to them and be comforted.
and i'm glad they understand me.

Inspirational Speech by Dr. Randy Pausch On the Oprah Winfrey Show: The Last Lecture. Dr. Pausch Passed Away On July 25, 2008

2009-03-24T22:35:00.001+08:00

heart-full

2009-03-24T21:59:00.002+08:00

here i am again, about to rant.
good ol' trusty blog, my all time favourite sounding board =)
just hope it doesnt hate me for always typing out my random thots & feelings

well it's 5 days to mum's op.
ya ok fine, im worried and not the most positive of people now, admittedly.

keep wondering how things will be like when she'll be in bed most of the time...
it's at times like this that i realise how i've taken my mum for granted all these years...
just a woman at home who's got hardly any ambition -
who'll just wake up early everyday;
talk to her daughters or nag at them in the morning;
watch us get ready for work;
send us out the door;
start her day with prayers;
moving on to chores ard the house (cleaning, washing, ironing);
have lunch alone;
occasionally go grocery shopping alone;
carry all the heavy groceries alone;
chat up with her sis or mum;
watch her soap operas in the late afternoon alone;
prepare dinner;
wait for her husband to come home;
cook dinner;
wash up;
watch some more tv;
wait for her daughters to come home;
say her prayers and go to bed.

yup. that pretty much sums up her life on a daily basis.
exciting isnt it?

i just want everything to turn out well.
mum to be happy with her op and the outcome - that she wont be in excruciating pain
that she'll be ok...
that the rest of us at home can get our act together and not have to clean up after one another.
it's time to show some "family spirit" ard here now.
above all, i just wish for mum to stay positive no matter what.
only we know how much courage it took for her to agree to this.

i must focus on the objective. and remain focused.

my family's the top priority right now and im not going to let anything change that.

Beyonce y Justin Timberlake - Single Ladies (Parodia)

2009-03-20T19:12:00.001+08:00

funny stuff!!

Pass Me Not

2009-03-11T18:35:00.002+08:00

have i neglected God?
i have.
has my faith waivered?
i hope not.

i found my daily Gospel underneath a pile of work papers & other booklets...
why should i only turn to God when i'm feeling down.
this is so hypocritical.

this song best describes how i'm feeling. it represents my thoughts.
i over it unto Him.

Pass me not, O gentle Savior,
Hear my humble cry;
While on others Thou art calling,
Do not pass me by.

Refrain:
Savior, Savior, Hear my humble cry;
While on others Thou art calling,
Do not pass me by.

Let me at Thy throne of mercy
Find a sweet relief,
Kneeling there in deep contrition;
Help my unbelief.

The Law of the Garbage Truck

2009-03-11T09:47:00.002+08:00

How often do you let other people’s nonsense change your mood?
Do you let a bad driver, rude waiter, curt boss or an insensitive employee ruin your day?
Unless you’re the Terminator, you’re probably set back on your heels.

However, the mark of your success is how quickly you can refocus on what’s important.

Sixteen years ago I learned this lesson.
And I learned it in the back of a New York City taxi cab. Here’s what happened:

I hopped in a taxi, and we took off for Grand Central Station. We were driving in the right lane when all of a sudden a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us. My taxi driver slammed on his brakes, the car skidded, the tires squealed and at the last moment the car stopped just one inch from the other car’s back-end.

And what did we see next? The driver of the other car, the guy who almost caused a big accident, whipped his head around and he started swearing at us. How do I know? Ask any New Yorker, some words in New York come with a special face.

And then here’s what blew me away. My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was friendly. So, I said, "Why did you just do that!? This guy could have killed us!" And this is when my taxi driver told me what I now call, "The Law of the Garbage Truck™"
He said: Many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it. And if you let them, they’ll dump it on you. So when someone wants to dump on you, don’t take it personally. Just smile, wave, wish them well and move on. Believe me. You’ll be happier.

So I started thinking, how often do I let Garbage Trucks run right over me?
And how often do I take their garbage and spread it to other people at work, at home or on the street? It was then that I said, "I don’t want the garbage and I’m not going to spread it anymore."

I began to see Garbage Trucks. Like in the movie "The Sixth Sense," where the little boy said, "I see Dead People." Well now "I see Garbage Trucks."
I see the load they’re carrying. I see them coming to drop it off. And like my taxi driver, I don’t take it personally; I just smile, wave, wish them well and move on.

The bottom line is that successful people do not let Garbage Trucks take over their day. What about you? What would happen in your life, starting today, if you let more Garbage Trucks pass you by?

And my taxi driver was right. I am happier.

it's all his fault

2009-03-10T17:06:00.000+08:00

recent happenings has brought me to this conclusion.

as much as i understand the sense of belonging and the need to control, how much can you seriously control and watch over?
how much more problems/issues must you cause to understand that YOU are the real cause of everyone's confusion and increase in stress & workload?!
sure as hell doesn't take a genius to figure that out.

sigh. what a pain.

upset all the operations and cause us grief. replying emails that don't provide anything close to a solution.

as poor thing as i somehow think you are.
we are also victims of your "little" long staged play.

*shakes head and sighs at the same time* - over and over again

less drama

2009-03-05T15:41:00.002+08:00

i am thankful for a stable and normal week thus far.
hardly any drama this week.

i conclude that the recipe to a productive and efficient person is when he/she is in a good mood - unaffected by external negative factors. of course, that is hardly possible no matter how resilient a person can try to be.

nevertheless, i am just glad that all is fine now.

feeling so tired. just need to sleep =.=

all the rain and wind is making me lazy, and also causing my shoulder to ache.
crappologies.

A Different Approach to Fasting

2009-02-26T11:51:00.003+08:00

1. Fast from anger and hatred - Give your family and friends an extra dose of love each day

2. Fast from judging others - Before making any judgments, recall how Jesus overlooks our faults.

3. Fast from discouragement - Hold on to Jesus' promise that He has a perfect plan for your life.

4. Fast from complaining - When you find yourself about to complain, close your eyes and recall some of the little moments of joy Jesus has given you.

5. Fast from resentment or bitterness - Work on forgiving those who may have hurt you.

6. Fast from spending too much money - Try to reduce your spending by ten percent and give those savings to the poor.

same story, different day

2009-02-25T15:03:00.003+08:00

it hasn't even been done yet.
one month seems like such a long way more - it seems like forever. somehow.
but everday it's the same story, different day.

i'm exhausted. really.
emotionally, mentally and physically.
how am i to cope?
as much as i can't expect her to understand what i'm going through but why are our feelings being neglected?

i understand her fears. does she understand mine?
i know how she feels. does she know how i feel?

God, please help me.
i'm on a sinking ship and i really don't know what to do anymore.
how am i to make her understand and see the objectives?
please help me. i can't afford to lose my faith now. not now.

hope.

2009-02-09T15:28:00.000+08:00

Four candles in a dark room burn slowly. The ambience was soft, so soft you could hear their thoughts.

The first one said: “I am Peace. However, nobody can keep me lit. I believe I will go out.” Its flame rapidly diminishes and goes out completely.

The second one says: “I am Faith. Most of all, I am no longer indispensable, so it doesn’t make sense that I stay lit.” When it finished talking, a soft breeze blew on it, putting it out.

Sadly, the third candle spoke in its turn: “I am Love. I haven’t got the strength to stay lit. People put me aside and don’t understand my importance. They even forget to love those who are nearest to them.” And waiting no longer, it flickers and dies.

Suddenly, a child enters the room and sees three candles not burning. “Why are you not burning? You are supposed to stay lit till the end.” Saying this, the child begins to sob.

Then the fourth candle said: “Don’t be afraid. While I am still burning, we can relight the other candles, for I am Hope!”

With shining eyes, the child took the candle of hope and lit the other candles.

Even when you seem to lose all else, always keep the flame of hope burning within you.

mutual understanding

2009-02-08T21:32:00.002+08:00

life would be a lot less complicated if people took a step back every now and then to realise that they should understand people or each other more.
then again, i have since long ago concluded that nothing i do is ever good enough.
surely, someone has smthg to say abt something in my life.
else, they just get upset at me and i'm suppose to be a psychic and read the signs.

it seems to me, that it is an evil occurance to be close to someone, anyone.
and it's all because of expectations.
pple dun seem to want to cut each other some slack these days.
and pple dun give each other enough credit for the things they do.
humans are such that they thrive on picking on the misdeeds.
but whatever the case is, it just isn't suppose to be difficult or painful isnt it?

what's the point of making life so complicated and frustrating for one another?
and he said i have been so tensed lately.
no prizes for guessing why huh?

everyday, every week is a same cycle.
same shit, different day.
so shouldn't we help each other get through life a little easier?
make each other smile more, as opposed to getting pissed off over minor petty matters?

as it is, it is sad enough that weekends have to end, and mondays arrive cos that means work day.
sundays are always the hardest to get by.
yet, who cares?
cos anyway, people assume that i have an endless supply of confidence, self-esteem and positivity.
but in fact, half the time, i deal with it myself.
i am my own cheer leader. i am my own perk-myself-upper.

to be honest, maybe i do know what the real problem is.
so maybe if i just got rid of myself, then i would stop feeling this way.
then again, sooner or later, i might just lose my mind.

i'm freakin' tired of pleasing the world.
surely this can't be the reason for my existence.

i need a sign. please.

impending disaster?

2009-02-03T11:48:00.002+08:00

thought of the day:
if we keep comparing our current relationships to those of the past, that is truly a recipe for disaster.

why should there be a need to compare?
we are all individuals at the end of the day. no 2 people function in the exact same way.
as hard as we try to be objective most of the time, it's hard isn't it?
afterall, we are humans.

it's better to have loved, then never to have loved at all.
cliche but true.

learn to cherish those around you. be it your friends or significant other halves.
you'll never know when you might lose them - no warning signs, nothing.
live each day as it comes, be contented and thankful for all that you have.

just like procelain, relationships/friendships are extremely fragile.
once broken, no matter how hard you may try to mend it with teary eyes, things will just never be the same again.
you may even cry your eyes and lungs out, but will it matter anymore?

so don't do anything you might regret.
else, just be prepared to live with regret(s).

men & women

2009-01-30T15:52:00.002+08:00

a random 3-way conversation over MSN just occured between 2 of my colleagues and myself, which stirred some thought and shed some light to my otherwise stereotypical mindset...

ok so this is how it goes...

aestee says (3:44 PM):
err
he really a bit diff planet
l y d i a says (3:45 PM):
uh huhhh
aestee says (3:45 PM):
oh ya forgot men are frm mars
l y d i a says (3:45 PM):
yeshhh
Kyø - A real man never back down on his promises says (3:46 PM):
we are living on earth liao
lets not talk about the past

what Lionel says is true la.
we are living on planet earth and this means that there should be no difference between male & female; and that we should all learn to get along with each other for a change.
i know........ no matter what, we're all stuck in this stereotypical mindset of men are from mars and women are from venus.
but then the question goes back to: let's jolly well figure a way to get out of it then! =)

Land Before Time - Baby Littlefoot

2009-01-28T17:27:00.001+08:00

this is a classic.

CRAP drivers

2009-01-22T11:42:00.002+08:00

i seriously can't stand (-> this is putting it VERY nicely already) those DUMB A** CRAP drivers on ECP every morning during the morning peak hours rush.
they should all just go back to Driving School or something!
why do people have to slow down whilst going up Benjamin Sheares bridge!?!?!?!?!
why why why?
i can't seem to see the logic in doing so.
don't they understand that due to their HORRIBLE driving skills & common sense, they hold back the traffic and cause a tail back all the way down to marine parade?!?!?!?!
this causes people to be frustrated so early in the morning & be late for work!
why must they be so dumb?
they are beyond description.
dumb, arrogant, selfish, ugly, kiasu, idoitic, annoying, cuckoo shit singaporean male driverssssssssssssss!

once you get up the Benjamin Sheares, guess what?!?!?!?!
THE TRAFFIC SUDDENLY CLEARS!
i stress the word - SUDDENLY.

also, Singaporean man (more like boys) are so damn bloody ungentlemanly.
seriously.
i hate to make such a sweeping statement.
but really, from uncles to yuppies, all CANNOT MAKE IT.
when they want to chap your lane, they don't care, they just simply anyhow squeeze their way through, not caring for your safety nor convenience.
why? because they are simply SELFISH. best part is, they don't even say thanks when you give way to them!!!
sigh sigh sigh.
so this morning, i met this super cannot-make-it white mitsubishi lancer (time to scrap ur damn old car dude) who didn't let me chap his lane to go to Rochor, (hope he gets his just desserts) speeded up just when i switched my left signal on!
wonderful isn't he?
world's nicest male driver award goes to him. definately. *rolls eyes*
sigh sigh sigh.

so hoppppppppping mad this morning!
arghhhh!
felt like just burning all of them.
burn people, burn!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i seriously need a loud hailer installed to my car.

guilt trips.

2009-01-20T11:19:00.002+08:00

these are by far the best trips to be on isn't it?
people make you feel like the world's biggest idoit, say things to rub it in your face just when you're already feeling miserable.
is that a true attempt to help the situation or wad?
i don't get it.
maybe this is too high an order for me to comprehend.

i like to look and think the best of people. really i do.
but i can't do that all of the time.
i am human after all.
and i think i deserve some credit for that from time to time.
some allowance please?

how do you like to feel that anything you do is never gonna be good enough?
i just know that i can't seem to ever escape that ill-fate of being made to feel that way.
perhaps it is self-imposed.
shrugs. i don't know. can't tell.

things are not always easy to just speak your mind.
sometimes things just need to be internalised for a while.
in which case, i realised, i don't even know what's exactly wrong.
just don't feel comfortable.
like something is amiss.
simply hate that feeling.
but what to do, everyone goes through it don't they?
i know it'll make light someday but just not now because it's all gloom and doom at the moment.

do me a favour, whoever reads this, please don't ask me about it.
because honestly, i wouldn't know what to tell you either.

why do you even bother?

2009-01-18T04:15:00.002+08:00

thought of the day is:
"why is there a need to deal with difficult people?"

2 ways to it.
think abt it positively or negatively.

unfortunately, the negative aspects seems to outshine the positive for me right now as i'm penning my thoughts.

"why do you even bother?"
shrugs. don't know.

just simply hate to keep second-guessing people.
sometimes feel i'm better for being a hermit for a while.
just to stay away from situations that catches my attention inevitably.

friendships, relationships, all the same.
both require love and effort.
so how if thats the case?
doesn't anybody strife to upkeep something called unconditional love?
then again, maybe upkeep isnt the correct word.
it's more like, doesn't anybody want to give out and receive unconditional love?
or does everyone simply don't believe in it anymore?

it's not always as simple as everyone thinks, to be the peace-maker.
if everyone can just learn to tolerate each other a bit more,
or to just be a little more thoughtful, kind, considerate, caring, tactful, loving, patient, forgiving, i seriously think the world will be much easier to live in and lives wouldn't have to be significantly shortened.

then again, that's just only my mentality i guess.
technically, the world is a lonely place.
it's me/you against the world.

approval required

2009-01-12T10:00:00.003+08:00

i never knew i needed approval from people on who i date.
isnt that a bit passe?
don't understand it always seems that you must have a say about/in my life.

don't judge others without first judging yourself.

I don't like you Mommy

2008-12-23T10:14:00.001+08:00

labels or love?

2008-12-10T11:40:00.002+08:00

while my colleague beside me is obviously quarrelling with her boyfriend aka husband-to-be, over HDB matters... here i am wondering why are there such numbskulls on earth/in Singapore?

are guys these days so dense as that?
i refuse to believe that our dad's era of men are all extinct.
there is some hope! i think...
i hate to have to stereotype.

oh well... live and be happy!
life's too short to fuss over boys.

so i concluded, i'll have Fergie's song as part of my life's music playlist.
the lyrics are.................... cool ;)

Shopping for labels, shopping for love
Manolo and Louis, it's all I'm thinking of
Shopping for labels, shopping for love
Manolo and Louis, it's all I'm thinking of

I already know what my addiction is
I be looking for labels, I ain't looking for love
I shop for purses while I walk out the door
Don't cry, buy a bag and then get over it
And, I'm not concerned with all the politics
It's a lot of men I know I could find another one.
What I know is that I'm always happy when I walk out the store, store

I'm guessing Supercalifragi-sexy, nothing to be playing with
I love him, hate him, kiss him, diss him, tryna to walk a mile in my kicks

Love's like a runway but which one do I love more
No emotional baggage, just big bags filled with Dior
Love's like a runway, so what's all the fussing for
Let's stop chasing those boys and shop some more

I know I might come off as negative
I be looking for labels, I ain't looking for love
Relationships are often so hard to tame
A Prada dress has never broke my heart before
And, ballin's something that I'm fed up with
I'mma do the damn thing, watch me do the damn thing
Cause I know that my credit card will help me put out the flames

I'm guessing Supercalifragi-sexy, nothing to be playing with
I love him, hate him, kiss him, diss him, tryna to walk a mile in my kicks

Gucci, Fendi, Prada purses, purchasing them finer things
Men they come a dime a dozen, just give me them diamond rings
I'm into a lot of bling, Cadillac, Chanel and Coach
Fellas boast but they can't really handle my female approach
Buying things is hard to say
Rocking Christian Audigier, Manolo, Polo, taking photos in my Cartier
So we can't go all the way, I know you might hate it but
I'm a shop for labels while them ladies lay and wait for love

the art of hidding

2008-12-05T15:44:00.002+08:00

question: is it healthy to hide relationships?
obviously not.

would you be truly happy?
it seems so stressful to do so...
what's the point in hidding?
all i see are negative outcomes.

i hope she sees it.

everyone is an adult here, so i don't see a point in having to purposely deceive others or prevent others from finding out.
what's so shameful?

if you love and care for each other, that's enough.
people should and would give their blessings!
our impression has changed.
and it is leaving one party hurt and affected.

but i'm proud of him - proud that he is handling it just fine.
all those bottled-up frustrations, who would know? and who would care?
is there a way i could possibly help?

love isn't painless, but it is unconditional.
that's the way love is suppose to be.
or at least that's what i think.

i hope they work this out soon.
hate to see them like this....

Pixar - Tennis Commercial

2008-12-01T23:19:00.001+08:00

why bother

2008-12-01T22:25:00.002+08:00

why should i bother being nice when in the end i always get shit for it.
no appreciation whatsoever.
cept for a black face.
why should i even bother trying then.
i just don't understand the logic in that.
not as if that's the only one that can be used.
all because of laziness, selfishness and own ease of usage, that causes inconvenience to others.
what crap.
who isn't tired, who doesn't want convenience, who doesn't want the easy way out.
why can't the peace be longer...
then i wouldn't have to put myself through all of this.
been away already, talk online whole day, phone calls... it's never enough.
i need my peace again.
it's good to be alone. seriously.

Rav 4

2008-11-30T22:05:00.003+08:00

i hereby declare that i rav 4 drivers suck.
big time.
road bullies they all are.

Britney Spears - Womanizer (Director's Cut)

2008-11-25T09:42:00.001+08:00

yummy mummy!
welcome back Britney!!!

it just happened

2008-11-20T16:00:00.002+08:00

not as if i hoped/wished/prayed for it to happen so i simply can't understand why it is so hard for you to just accept the truth?
offer some words of consolation?
show some care/concern?
why must it have to be like this?
why do you have to be like this?
am i just suppose to suck it up all the time?
it's just so frustrating and it makes me hate telling you anything.
it doesn't have to be this way.
is it really so much to ask for?
i'm taking the responsibility, i'm taking ownership of the matter, why can't you see that?
is everything never good enough in your eyes?
why can others be nice about it but you can't?
i really don't get it.
i don't think i ever will.

an analogy developed in Malacca

2008-11-18T11:37:00.002+08:00

once again, heartfelt thanks to Grace, Peiwen and Denise for this very memorable trip.
looking forward to many more to come!

thanks for listening and sharing with me memories, thoughts and feelings.
i've been thinking and guess now i know what to do.

came up with this analogy whilst in discussion with one of the topics,
Mei asked: "but jie, you always give people the benefit of doubt, you're always able to handle stuff."
and my reply was: "even water bottles have their limits. a 500ml water bottle's function is to only hold 500ml worth of water, nothing more than that. pour anymore into it, and the water will just overflow."

i am not a bottomless pit.

sorry is just merely a word.
what weight does it hold anymore these days...
*shrugs*

post celebration with my SIM girls

2008-11-18T11:26:00.002+08:00

Thanks girls, for all the effort and planning.

it was a wonderful dinner, get-together.

cheers to more ahead!

*hugs*

pointless rambles

2008-11-13T09:26:00.002+08:00

and so the truth is told.
seems like nobody wants/needs to hear about it.
i know i don't need to know.
cos' what you don't know won't hurt.
as long as you're happy - it's ok.
you're right, everything sounds like excuses.
so what's the point of explaining anymore?
it's ok. just drop it.

Christmas Carolling

2008-11-12T16:25:00.002+08:00

Christmas is around the corner!!!
my favouritest time of the year.
time to hit the streets of orchard to soak up the atmosphere...

hopefully we'll find a group willing to do Christmas carolling soon!
any choir to intro, please email me or leave me a comment?

it's the time of the year when it rains all the time, it's cold and windy,
and when we all wish we had someone to spend the special holidays with.

i'm so glad i watched High School Musical 3!
it was awesome. reminds me so much of my CHIJ days somehow...
how nostalgic...
i'm listening to the album on Ineem now! haha.

looking forward to my road trip this Friday!
need a break badly.
looking forward to be out of this place, somewhere different.
somewhere i can just let loose and be comfortable.
so many places to go, so many things to see.
i'm sure we'll have a good time! :)

now that a recession is looming and dooming,
i wish everyone well.
those who are still in school (uni), try to stay in there as long as you can.
the job market is not at all friendly now.
crime rate is high and everyone probably isn't in the best of moods.

good luck guys. take care...

emotional measurements?

2008-11-11T09:10:00.001+08:00

thanks to Nic, i have a food for thought...

statement: there is a difference between being emotionally strong and emotionally indifferent.

so what are you?
and
what am i?

hmmmmm.....

Desaru Staff Party 18 Aug 2008

2008-11-06T17:35:00.004+08:00

Photos from Cartier International Polo 2008

2008-11-06T17:31:00.003+08:00

save save save

2008-11-06T17:19:00.002+08:00

so now that recession is looming, it's time to tighten our purse strings, BIG TIME.
no unnecessary spending and buying.

just had an insightful conversation with a working partner/contact.
she offered some tips of being cost-savvy.
now it's not about being a cheap-skate but it's about spending wisely.
cutting down petrol costs isn't going to change much.

travelling has now become a luxury, again. even more so than before.
people, this world-wide financial crisis is not funny.
it is affecting us, more than you'd imagine.

time to wisen up, time for me to do some financial planning.
saving money is the only option now.
thing is i need to plan on how to curb all the unnecessary spending.
as one of my colleagues just mentioned today over lunch: food should never have to be expensive.
true that.
so instead of going to some snazzy joint for a steak, why not just go to friendly ol' NTUC or Cold Storage and do some DIY cooking at home! with the company of friends, why isn't that lovely? :)

ok, i need to start thinking and planning.
time to hide in a shell!

sigh... to think Christmas is near...
nope, ain't gon' let this dampen my year end festive mood!!!

drink, get drunk and forget

2008-10-30T15:12:00.005+08:00

need to get rid of all the pests.
i hate bugs.
they shud all go away.
make them disappear!
NOW!!!

don't tell me what to do.
stop questioning. if i don't question ur intentions/actions, then don't question mine.
in a life full of doubt, suspicion and cruelty, we certainly don't need to contribute to that.
believe it is fully self-sustaining. in fact, thriving very well.
already feels like my life has been significantly shortened.

could use a couple of jagerbombs...
i was told, 6 and your eyes will go rolling.
i'm gonna try for 4!
let's see what happens.

the winner takes it all

2008-10-23T10:20:00.004+08:00

so many questions running through my mind.
could it have been all just a lie?

how difficult could it be to just come clean about it?
and i had to find out through people & technology.

perhaps it's casual, perhaps it's convenient.
my feelings sure as hell wasn't important.

everyone says all humans are naturally selfish, i thought - no. not you.
i wouldn't say i think extremely highly of you.
though you were quite there.

the last person i thought i would ever have to second guess.
it didn't and shouldn't have had to turn out this way.
refusing to believe that life is just built on lies or denial but guess what, it has been proven.
of all people, of all things.
through it all, all this while, utmost faith & trust. no doubt about it.

things were almost perfect, i couldn't ask for more.
but somehow, unexpectedly, reality sets in and I get slapped in the cheek.

painful, it's true.
but don't worry, it'll all come to an end.
it always does.

it's all about the money

2008-08-26T22:57:00.004+08:00

the tune that pops up in my head now is Donald Trump's theme song on his reality program *money money money money...... MONEY*

thats how the world is now isnt it?
it's ALL about the MONEY.
vitamin M some call it... haha

we all know we need money for basic necessities, to fulfill our physiological needs.
but due to increasing influence from the west, education, internet, media etc, everyone is becoming more affluent. and thus willing to spend.
we all know about the power of influence and pursuation.
how far does this go and what can we do to curb such disbenefits?

disbenefits because they do slightly more harm than good.
spending money on things we technically don't need.
they are mostly wants.
go on, admit it. you know you don't need your branded wallets, bags, shoes, clothes etc...

we all fall prey to worldly desires that most of the time, we loose focus on the more important things...
what could possibly be more important than self-happiness and fulfillment?
many things...
- doing works of charity, outreach to those who are needy. you and i, blogging on this sphere, definately NOT needy.
- spending time with family members at home, instead of going window shopping and spending over $6 for a cuppa at Starbucks/Coffeebean.
- buying less clothes because the cupbaord at home is bursting, while kids overseas wear your hand-me-downs, or worst, they wear things that perhaps some of us wore once and decided never to wear again

back in school, we all had this tendency to compare ourselves against people who did better than us, scored higher marks than us, who were in better class etc etc...
but when it comes to such social issues, we would compare ourselves to those who are "worst off" - those who spend even more money than us, or those who shop as if their bank accounts have an endless supply.
isn't that such a contradiction???
YES. definately.
in this case, shouldn't we snap back to reality to realise that we are indeed that bad as well?
i don't see most of us comparing ourselves to those who are poorer, who can't afford luxurious/branded items, right?
this calls for some self-reflection!
or are we just to self-righteous to do so?

money makes a couple fall out.
money makes a family fall out.
money makes siblings bitter.
money makes people unhappy.
money makes people desperate.
money breaks friendships.

that's the harsh reality isn't it?
everyone is just getting increasingly practical and too realistic for their own good these days.
just look around you... who doesn't carry the latest model of handphone, who doesn't own an I-Pod or Mac Book, or even just a simple laptop, who doesn't wear any brands, who doesn't own any brands, who can't afford the cafe scene, who can't afford tertiary education, who can't afford eating in at least a food court everyday, who doesn't aspire to own their own credit cards, house, car or collection of something.
we're so hard to please aren't we?

what is the meaning of contentment then?

choices, decisions & calculated risks

2008-08-23T23:58:00.003+08:00

thought of the week:

1) is it better to be indecisive?
or
2) is it better to be decisive?

choices.... choices..... and MORE choices!
that's what life is all about isn't it? :)
made up of choices and decisions to be made, every other second/minute/hour/day.

every choice of an action comes with a price to pay, be it good or bad.
when it comes to "life" choices/decisions to be made, there is no such thing as a RIGHT or WRONG decision. there are also no perfect plans.
when a decision has to be made, it just has to be made.

live with the consequences! that's the next step.
be practical and pragmatic.
in the face of decision making, people would USUALLY have thought through the whole process and SHOULD BE fully aware of the consequences for both their "RIGHT" and "WRONG" choices.
but somehow unfortunately, not everyone has that gift of foresight.
that's why there are different types of characters/personalities, no?

some people are great at macro managing - the gift of great foresight;
whereas others are better at micro managing - looking into the nitty gritty details of things.
few have the best of both worlds.
nevertheless, work hard towards achieving both! =D

no matter how hard anyone tries to foresee issues or problems, there's always bound to be a loophole, somewhere, somehow.
murphy's law.
but that's just life isn't it?
else, there wouldn't be something called regret.

my next question would be: "why regret?"
there is no point in doing so.
easier said than done. definately!
but ahaa! that's life's challenge! ;)
the trick is calculated-risk.

one can only plan so much and so far ahead. but what about the now?
what about the short-term goals?
what about the back-up plans?
not everything has a sure-shot solution.
there isn't a perfect scenario.
no such thing as an easy way out.

we can't say for sure what WILL happen but we can TRY to make things right, as best as we can and as far as possible.

RuPaul - Supermodel (You Better Work)

2008-08-16T12:03:00.001+08:00

Malacca June 2008

2008-07-29T23:12:00.004+08:00

Memories from Malacca 27 - 29 June 2008

friends who are interested to watch a really cute video of little Elijah, please ask me! =)

Denise's 21st in Spore - Round 1

2008-07-29T22:49:00.003+08:00

* THE STAR OF THE EVENING *

Thanks for inviting us to share your evening.

revival

2008-07-26T00:43:00.002+08:00

cheers to the revival of my blog!
it's about time!
a form of communication between cuzy Grace and i...
just our little way of keeping in touch and knowing whats been happening in each other's busy lives...

sorry cuzy, this took way too long.
longer than expected perhaps?
hope ure doing well in Beijing!!
hugs, missing ya loads!

aside to that, i've done a little revamp to my blog template, as usual, i cud never figure out how to change the blog skin, so just had to rely on good ol' blogger.com to do the job for me. hassle free! ;)

it's friday now. weather's been dreary, but it isn't always such a bad thing cos we'll all get to slp in and enjoy the lovely weekend!
time has been passing by us so quickly. too quickly sometimes i feel.
we've just entered into the third quarter of 2008!
i've now been working for nearly 7 months.

every year just passes by us so fast. is it such a good thing afterall?
just when i thought it would be so long, so painful, it still is.
are things always so easy to let go?
are things meant to be let go so easily?
i struggle to find the truth sometimes.
if only life was like a ten-year series, we would have model answers to everything.
i wish there was a way to understand...
time will make things right, i believe. In His time...

convocation is coming up! i'm excited!!! :)
a goal that was my vision throughout uni life - at times when the studying/memorising and projects were getting too much to bear, this vision was what i held on to, to keep me going.

thank God for His strength, without him, i would not be where i am now, and doing what i'm doing.

i would like to take this opportunity to wish all my dear friends who are still in uni, to share this vision with me. stay strong. remember why you are in school. not because of friends but because of what your future might potentially hold. life is what you make of it.
you will learn to treasure uni life, no matter how tough tutorials/assignments/projects are.
be grateful that you are one of the lucky few who even get a uni education.
not all of us are born that fortunate, always remember that.

before i head to bed, i would like to close this entry to congratulate my dearest cousin Grace on her job extremely well done, as always. this time, you are recognised cuzy. your efforts has not and did not go down the drain! you are famous now cuz. people will head-hunt you. if your employer doesn't treasure you, someone else will. remember that. you have made a mark for yourself. i'm so happy for you and i'm sure ur parents are too! =) *hugs
i just pray that you are safe & well everyday there cuzy.
take good care of urself and know that u are in my thoughts.

Good Night...

7-8 June's Sermon @ QOP

2008-06-10T23:34:00.002+08:00

preaching was done by Fr. Ambrose Vaz
as usual, it was both spiritual and enlightening.
i'm glad i attended mass at QOP that evening.

He spoke of God's restorative mercy and love.
Our God is not a God of destruction, but of forgiveness and mercy.
throughout the bible, we note that God has been patient, despite being tempted by the devil for 40 days in the desert.
in the Gospel it was mentioned that God dined and fellowshiped with tax collectors and sinful men - it is the sick who needs to see the doctor, not those who are well.

God is divine. we must remember to call on him in times when we need healing & restoration. we need constant guidance to do the right thing and be on the right path.
self-righteousness will not get us anywhere.
how tough must we be to fight against our own human nature? to overcome our own fears?
when do you know you've had enough?
when will you learn to give up and let go?

putting the needs and welfare of someone before yourself - an act of charity and love - is it so difficult?
it is challenging, that i know.
but surely, it is not impossible.

how does one be wise and yet not be emotional about things?
how does one manage yourself and self-convince?
there is a purpose and plan in everything.
if only we are patient enough to wait on the Lord.
trusting that He will make our paths straight.
how does one surrender to the will of God, just like how Abraham did - the willingness to sacrifice his only son Isaac, when God decreed?

our faith is like a seed that needs to be planted in good soil, in order for it to grow.
Your will be done, not mine.

Usher - Love In This Club [OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO]

2008-06-08T23:17:00.001+08:00

Evolution of Dance

2008-06-03T22:52:00.001+08:00

new pronunciations

2008-05-22T16:50:00.002+08:00

thanks = tens

correct = cor-right

can't stand people who are fake and try too hard.
don't they know that they CANNOT MAKE IT?

i just simply can't respect irritants.
playing some kind of political mind games.
who do they think they are?

shall not stoop to their level of bad english and horrible attitude that stinks big time.
uneducated bunch of clowns.

which is kinder?

2008-05-08T12:47:00.003+08:00

food for thought:
i wonder which is the lesser of 2 evils, hmmm........
to not know how to show someone you care about them?
or
to care too much, that it gets you into trouble?

familiar faces

2008-05-05T16:24:00.002+08:00

yesterday, i spent a few good hours with my pals.
it was nice to hear familiar voices, and see familiar faces :)
random thoughts flashed through my mind and i knew it has been quite a while since i last caught up with them.
sorry i have neglected you guys all this while...
but thank you all for making the effort to hang out, it was worth it! i had fun with you guys. thank you!

work life balance. it isn't easy. not even now, without a family, it isn't easy. imagine how it'll be like having your own family, yet still trying to stay afloat with the latest gossips and catch up with close friends!
time is never on our side, or is it?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooo........ i refuse to fall under a 'no-social life' category!

looking forward to being home, in bed, cuddling up with pillows to read seems to be the only charm right now... gee.

i hope Grace and Shiqin are having a good time in Bali now!
i wish i could be there with them... i believe part of my heart and mind is :)

annoying & insulting

2008-04-30T16:00:00.002+08:00

don't you find people around you these days becoming increasingly insensitive, annoying & insulting?
i just don't understand how some people can be so selfish. only looking out for their own interest and/or happiness/fun.
they should just grow up and not be such a pain to society & especially to me!

don't understand how some people can be so dense.
i just hope i am not one of them. no. i am sure i am not one like them.

God please help these people, help them to understand things better and be less annoying to humanity.
Grant me the grace to forgive and be patient with them. i know it is not easy but pls help me try to make things better. help them to realise that the world does not revolve around them.

during your Ascension tomorrow, please help me realise the importance of my faith and religion. help me to seek the truth and with your guidance, may i find the answers to my thoughts. i sincerely hope to grow into a better person - to be more Christ-like. help me to see the good in everything i do, in the people i meet and in the things that i have and all around me. help me to appreciate what you have created and what i have. help me not to take people/things for granted.

back with a mission

2008-04-16T13:10:00.003+08:00

back from Bali, back to work.
monday, and i was already drowning in work.

to think we all could laugh and joke about me getting "bluffed" into this job!
haha! come to think of it, it is kinda funny. ironically.

just a quick shout out to all my dear friends:

i'm really sorry that i haven't been in contact with most of you, at least not as often as i hope it could be. work is NOT an excuse but it certainly is the reason why i havent been ard or that u havent been hearing from me.
sincerest apologies.
would like each and every one of you to know that i have not forgotten you.
all of you are very much still in my heart, thoughts, prayers and well-wishes.
thank you all for your kind understanding.
whenever you need to look for me, look no further. you can find me here...

work isnt dreadful, it's just that i'm still learning to cope and multi-task.
i have quite a few things on my plate now.

it's sunday now and i'm still at work.
i really hope this wont be forever.
i hope nthg goes wrong today and that i can cope with whatever comes my way.

i felt esp emotional yesterday when i was told of what was happening here.
i know somethings are beyond my control.
but i seriously need to get a grip of things. i feel exhausted.
i hope i dont burn out so soon because there's so much more to come.
'never say die' shall be my motto for the weeks ahead!
i shall stay strong and persevere! i know i'm not alone in this. :)

Bali 10 - 13 April 2008

2008-04-07T12:10:00.002+08:00

my third trip to Bali!
i'm so looking forward to a well-deserved and long-overdued holiday break!
gonna catch some sun, sand, sea, sights, shopping, food, teh-botol and massages!
a decadent break is just what i need.
hehe! =P

packing in still in progress...
will be bringing back krispy kreme for you peeps k.

take good care of yourselves and hope all is well with you.
have a good week ya'll!

020408 statement of the day

2008-04-02T09:22:00.001+08:00

Ability may take you to the top,
but it takes character to remain at the top.

April Fool's!

2008-04-01T11:21:00.002+08:00

looking at the pages of my blog, i thought to myself,
i must make the effort to keep my blog alive by posting nonsensical!

happy april fool's day everyone! :)
hope u guys didnt get it too bad by your friends/classmates/colleagues.
afterall, it is all in good fun ya ;)

work has been crazy busy as usual for me.
im a lil' under the weather the past few days...
then again, the weather has been awfully crappy *shrugs*

ok random things:
1. i miss sch / student life
2. i miss afternoon coffee sessions
3. i miss sleeping in in the mornings
4. i miss grocery shopping / bonding sessions with my mum
5. i miss doing unproductive things
6. i cant stand sounding nasal
7. i miss the chicken cutlet at TP Biz canteen
8. i miss TP life & all my tourism mates

oh well...

anyway AGM went ok yesterday... we didnt meet quorum but we did ok.
didnt end as late as we thought it would.
at least there was no banging of tables or throwing of chairs or even yelling...
and at least GM let us come in at 10am today =)

ok, back to work!
take care one and all!
do drink more water! :)
shalom...

postcard

2008-03-20T10:54:00.003+08:00

"With Caesar's mind comes a box,
that comes alive with a perfect square."

an unexpected greeting from afar, never fails to create the sweetest smile :)

HAPPY EASTER!!!

can't be held responsible

2008-03-16T22:41:00.002+08:00

i just cant stand it when it seems to be my fault. or at least you make it seem as if it is my fault.
just because you're tired doesn't mean no one else is.
my world doesn't revolve around being of service to you only.
don't expect me or anyone else to read your mind all the time.
expectations can and do weaken one's mental strength.

it's just too tiring trying to be nice all the time.
it doesn't pay to be kind all the time.
ya true, perhaps only God knows.
it's not as if i am trying to play the victim or trying to seek attention,
but i just feel that you can be so unfair at times.
throwing your weight around isn't going to right the wrong.

i've grown up.
i have my own life now.
i can't always be at your beck and call.
i hope i'm not becoming too selfish.
but i just hope you can understand sometimes... it's not always about you.
i do have to admit, this is all partly my fault as well.
oh well... let'e hope some things can change over time.

on to a lighter note, it's a brand new week! mid march already!
time has passed us by so quickly, again.
i'm in my 3rd month of work.
i'm getting the hang of things, still there is so much more i need to know and learn about.
esp Polo. the next few weeks, starting from tomorrow, right into April is going to be pretty crazy! lots of events to prepare for. i am looking forward though :)
team effort at this point is of utmost importance.
esp for the BMW event. i never felt more thankful for them both who stayed behind so late, despite having to wake so early to standby for the event later that morning, to help Steff and i. really, thank you both so very much.
we owe you both big time.
it is at times like this, that i learn the value of team work.
running on 3 hrs or less of slp was no joke. adrenaline was all we had to get us through the day. the event turned out a success anyway! and God was on our side with the not-too-bad weather that day. haha! :)
nevertheless, i am thankful.

anyway, cheers to a new week ahead!
happy holidays too! =)

one hill is always higher than another

2008-03-03T21:48:00.001+08:00

just like investments, every decision and choice in life is tied to a risk.
and just like the economy and the market, there are bullish and bearish years/periods.
ups and downs, simply put.
likewise with our thoughts and the things we do, isn't it?
one way or another, we just somehow end up in a whirlwind of mess, it could be good or bad, big or small; doesn't matter.
what's most important is what we take out of that learning lesson/life experience.
we must remember that we are in control of our own lives and that no one else is responsible for you, except you.
we should all learn to look for the light at the end of the tunnel, because going around in circles will not do anyone any good.

i need you to realise that it's not that i don't care.
it's just that i've learnt to be more selfish now.
because, do realise that i'm only human, there's only so much i can take.
perhaps you need to realise that you need me more than i need you.
life is not always a barter trade; or a tit for tad situation.
what you give, is what you get.
i hope you can learn to manage...

i'd like to end off with a statement that i came up with, at a random moment:
'even the strongest of absorption pads have a limited capacity.'

P.S. I Love You

2008-02-24T20:35:00.003+08:00

finally got round to catching this ultimately romantic movie!
i even found the soundtrack! it is out of stock at several music stores...
this movie, may just be another movie, but it truly touched my heart in more ways than one.
the love and emotions were so intense, it activated my already very active tear ducts.
it's amazing how love supersedes everything else.
truly amazing love story.
'sometimes there's only one thing left to say'............ how apt.

Class 95 moment

2008-02-21T11:48:00.001+08:00

heard this statement made by Glenn Ong over the radio this morning on his G-Spot segment and thought i'd share it with everyone...

'Everything you need to be you,
you already have.'

all things great and small

2008-02-19T21:27:00.002+08:00

in our lifetime, we learn and inevitably go through the process of decision making...
we consider both macro and micro perspectives, attempt to stay objective and realistic,
try hard to stay true to ourselves, our emotions and values, try to consider how other people might look at us, what they think about us, or even, how they will feel.
but seriously, how many of us can truly make a good judgement/decision?
how many of us can multi-task well?

not many.

the truth is we're never alone.

decisions in life aren't meant to be easy.
but we mould ourselves, don't we?

as cliche as this sounds, really, we just need to follow our heart.
the answer may already be in you.
it's just up to you to face it.
most of the time, we're afraid.
fear gets to us when we're the weakest.
but don't ever succumb to it! challenge it.
make the most out of your life.
good opportunities don't come by every other day.
neither are they given freely, to every/any one.
there is a bigger world out there then just you and me.
it's up for exploration and growth.
so make full use of it!

second sunday of Lent taught me this,
we must pray for the courage to forgive.
FORGIVENESS.
For - Give - Ness = For - Giving
GIVE.
when we are afraid to give, we become selfish creatures.
but think of it this way, Jesus, He forgave us and gave his life for us.
what more could we ask for?
so, why can't we just forgive people who aren't so nice to us or those who have done us wrong?

it's not easy, true.
then again, nothing in life ever is easy, isn't it?
ask yourself the following:
was school easy? was meeting new people easy?
are maintaining relationships easy? is work easy?

we must/need to learn to forgive.
because forgiveness leads to peace and understanding.
it is truly wonderful virtue to possess.
i'm learning to accept that Love is pain and suffering, because our sufferings & pain comes from those we love/care about.
how willing are we to embrace love and forgiveness?

I Will Follow You Into The Dark

2008-02-17T17:12:00.001+08:00

Thanks Leon, for telling me about this video! lovely emo song!

CNY 2008

2008-02-09T22:54:00.000+08:00

happy chinese holidays

2008-02-05T15:13:00.000+08:00

time has passed by so quickly, Jan is over, Feb is here!
so many things/events to look forward too everyone! :)
i've been working for the past 1 mth and things are more or less stabilising, so i'm thankful.
besides the bouts of usual headaches i get, i'm otherwise still fine, learning and adapting...

class 95 is my best companion at work and daily rushing is common.
the feeling is kind as all of us work hard together and do our best.
it's good to have a family environment! it's been confortable here :)
also, i have an extremely fun bunch of f&b staff here, who not only constantly feeds us good stuffs, and also educate us on fine places to dine at and how to appreciate food.
lovely bunch of pple really!
they've worked hard for the opening of our very own f&b outlets here in the club.
oh btw, the club's f&b outlets are opened to the public to dine, so listen up everyone! if u guys feel like visiting me or just wanna try out the superb food here, do give me a buzz! i cant gurantee a discount but i can assure you guys of the standard! ;)
soooooo.... if u guys are into french/chinese cuisine, fine dining style, do let me know!

cheers to one and all for the long week(end) ahead!
i'm really looking forward to nice long slp sessions & relaxing! :) hehe!
i'm also looking forward to sinfully yummyliciously yummy food! esp at my uncle's place!
will upload some pix, if i actually remember to capture them.... haa!

here's wishing one and all, a blessed lunar new year! =)
take care and drink more water ya'll!

Achmed's Jingle Bombs

2008-02-02T15:30:00.001+08:00

Eddie Izzard- Death Star Canteen

2008-01-29T13:00:00.003+08:00

Jeff Dunham - Achmed the Dead Terrorist

2008-01-29T13:00:00.001+08:00

Tiffany - I Think We're Alone Now

2008-01-21T22:38:00.001+08:00

stable and field

2008-01-14T16:04:00.001+08:00

working at the spore polo club has been enjoyable thus far,
the work is not insane, in fact i feel too lax most of the time.
comfortable is a gd word to describe the experience here.

i realised i hvnt quite blogged in a while...
i do miss my 'dear diary' moments.

new year, new experiences, new things!
time to do smthg different?
chinese new year is also ard the corner! time for our yearly pilgrimage?

ever since the start of the new year, time has passed by pretty quick
let's hope everything goes well.
wishing one and all, happiness and peace!

when does what mean

2008-01-01T17:07:00.000+08:00

sometimes certain things that people say affects you - directly or indirectly.
or is it just pure sensitivity, or a lack of it?
or is it merely a sweeping statement?

but the question is how can you help/prevent it from affecting you too much or ignore it?

well, one of my resolutions is to learn how to prioritise and manage my emotions.
rather than having people remind you that you're messed up huh?